Mood Diary 6th ( 6 December 2010 )

6 December 2010
FAMILY ~ Father & Mother I Love You


Filial Piety,
Everyone of us must have it,
It's very important.
Our Father & Mother,
We owe them for a whole of our life,
We must appreciate everything that they gave us.
Actually they really can just put us at the corner side,
Don't care about us,
But, they didn't.
They care of us,
They scold us,
Just only for our good.
Although sometimes it's overbearing,
Vexatious,
But we should understand that,
They're not bear to do that.
How long have us didn't say I Love You to our parents,
Appreciate the times that you have,
Say I LOVE YOU,
To your FATHER & MOTHER.



*To my Father & Mother 

Father,
I'm so sorry,
Always make you angry,
I know I'm naughty,
When you scold me for my own good,
I won't listen it,
and I will reply defiantly.
I know it hurts you a lot.
I'm so sorry about.
You put a great effort on your work,
Just only wanted to earn moneys,
The one who sacrifice,
Is you,
My GREAT FATHER ~!!
Please forgive my fault,
Father,
I Love You <3

Mother,
I knew I'm a bad boy,
Whenever you asked me to help you,
I will say NO,
I knew,
Sometimes,
You're crying.
At that moment,
My heart is painful.
Because I knew that,
I'm wrong.
So sorry,
Mum.
You ring me pregnant for 10 months.
I owe you the whole of my life,
You're the one,
Who gave birth to me,
But I'm such a bad boy,
Do something to hurt you.
I'm sorry.
You sacrificing yourself to let me have a better way to go in the future.
I knew it.
I Love You too,
My BELOVED MOTHER ~!!
Please forgive me.

Father & Mother,
I LOVE YOU~!
We're in a HAPPY FAMILY  :)

Mood Diary 5th ( 30 November 2010 )

30 November 2010
Tears Dropping


Why?
You ~~!!
I want to forget you,
The memories between us,
I want to throw it into the rubbish dump,
It's no more important for me,
It's meaningless ~!!
Because,
You're the one,
Who made me lost everything !!!
Included my friends,
DAMN !!

I'm asking myself,
Why?
Am I still hating you,
But I can't get the answer,
I'm not caring you,
When I saw you face,
I felt disgusting,
A punch was wanted to be given by me to you.
ARRRSHHHH!!
What should I do,
CONFUSING in my MIND & HEART ~!

I cried for a night,
Maybe all of you will not believe in this,
But I really did,
I don't want to do to that so,
But I can't control myself,
Everything's NATURAL,
Tears dropped down from my eyes automatically.

I walked alone on the street,
I'm scolding myself,
I'm blaming myself.
I look strong,
But actually I'm weak.
I'm just a normal guy.


*Girl,
Maybe you will feel paiseh lah ~
Because of me,
I knew it,
Ahahaha ~
But actually I wanted to ask you something,
That's,
Could you just jump into my MIND, my HEART & also my SOUL ~!
I'm not dare to ask you a question like that lah ~!

It's sweet,
You know it?
Maybe you don't like me,
But I do.

It's okay.
No matter what answer in your mind,
I still can accept it. =)

Mood Diary 4th ( 28 November 2010 )

28 November 2010
Eco Eco Eco


Just came back from the M.A.D Leo Camp that was held at Cameron Highland,
These 3 days,
I learned a lot of things,
That's very meaningful.
Beside that,
Every activity is also quite syok.
But some are bored also,
Actually I'm very tired when I'm writing this post.
NO MORE ENERGY ~~ !!
EXHAUSTED ~~ !!

Some of the sketches are very funny,
Some of that are very bored,
But at least everyone had try their best to sketch for it.
I'm so happy because I can go to this Leo Camp,
I had a lot of new friends,
Although they live far away from my school.
They are came from Penang, Kedah, Perak, Ipoh and also Kuala Lumpur.
All of them are very friendly,
I'm also very friendly and also leng zai marh ~ ! ( THIS IS THE POINT~! XD )

Group 10 is my group,
This group damn funny,
While we're all having the activities,
We felt very happy and syok.
Because my group got hentai also. ><
My group got 14 members,
Included me lah ~ !
1. How Chuan
2. Nicholas ( Hentai ) XD
3. Zheng Feng
4. Darius ( OKK / OKU ) ( OKK = Orang Kurang Kurus / OKU = Orang Kurang Upaya )
5. Huei Hong
6. Li Chung
7. Wei Xian
8. Kah Fei
9. Xi Gene
10. Rain ( Not the KOREA's singer arh ! )
11. Carney ( GARDENIA ) Wakakakaka =D
12. Edmond ( A very quiet guy )
13. Vincent ( This guy sibeh leng zai lah !!! If you want to know him, tell me ! I introduce you to him, but NO GAY ARH ! )

All of these guys are my teammates !
We live together,
And die together !! ( In the CAMP only ) XD
We have fun in the activities of team building !
Syok-nya ~~
Beside that,
We have 1 more thing that was extremely excited to play for it !
That's to find out the moles that hide inside our teams. !
My team figured out 3 moles,
And our team got special commands !
That's DWL !~ Haha XD
You won't even know what's the mean of DWL.
This is a secret.

1 more KNS thing I want to share !
Don't ever wake us up at 3 o'clock morning to helping you all celebrate the birthday !
It's none of business lah woi. ==
People already mahu pengsan-pengsan,
You all still wake them up to do something 'SPECIAL'~!
WALAO EH ~!

Don't mind if I said something wrong arh !
Forgive me please ~ XD
Actually I really learned a lot of things from this camp,
This camp are damn funny and meaningful.
After this camp,
We all must MAKE A DIFFERENCE ! =)


Fall In Love to Your Sweet Smiles

*Second Part of My 4th Mood Diary
Xi Gene!
Vincent !
Help me a lot in this,
Thanks a lot,

Girl !
When I see you face,
It make me think about my first love,
Don't know why,
I like your sweet smiles,
I like your cute ears,
I like your shining eyes ~!

Everything of you attracted me,
It's like a magnet,
Hey Girl,
I miss you.
Maybe you won't even know that I miss you !
But I want to say it out loud here ~!
I like you, Girl.
Send a message for you,
And giving a hope to myself,
Wish that you will reply my message,
No matter how longs the time will be taken,
I will waiting for you.
Don't think that I'm just cheating,
I didn't bluff,
This is the truth !

Walk closer to you,
When my hand touch with your hand,
I felt that your hand are quite cold,
Did you felt cold,
Don't be afraid,
I'm not a monster,
I'm just a normal guy,
A human being like you.
I'm not scary,
I'm straight,
I didn't cheat,
Because I don't want to have any secrets between you and me.

Last before,
I'm always living in my own world,
I don't know,
What will happen in the next minute,
I knew that's something has changed,
Never felt this way,
And right here tonight.
I had a wishes,
Wish this moment,
Was ours to own it.
Girl,
I LIKE YOU ~!



*Maybe it's paiseh one lah,
But it's just only a post,
simple post,
I wrote it out what's in my mind and my heart.
Don't mind it.
Anything doing wrong,
Please forgive me,
Girl.

Mood Diary 3rd ( 25 November 2010 )

25 November 2010
Confused In My Heart


It's the M.A.D Leo Camp tomorrow,
Actually,
I should clean all the rubbish that always confused my HEART,
'They' stay in my MIND,
But they didn't wanted to get away from me.

I want to say it out !
Talk out LOUD !
I really miss you.
The first time of our date,
I didn't forget about it,
The Coffee Shop that we dated at,
I passed by at yesterday,
It's not there anymore,
It had change to a Western Restaurant.

Although everything had changes,
But something in my mind,
It didn't change at all,
Why?
I ask it always to myself,
Why can I just simply to forget it.
Am I wrong to miss you so much.
Forgive me,
About I didn't told you that,
The one who love you most,
It's ME...

I use strong to cover my weakness,
It's look like free,
But exactly I'm lonely,
I don't know the sadness that you have and the hurt that you told me before,
But I did.

Lastly,
Leave,
Stop the time,
Stop that moment,
Recognize the winter,
Remember the summer,
I'm sorry about that Dear,
I never tried to use my heart,
To do my best to understand you,
But now I knew that I loved you by my heart.

It's time to pack my bag,
See YA ! My HEART !
No more confused,
Be serious.

Mood Diary 2nd ( 12 November 2010 )

12 November 2010 ( Friday )
Black View In My Heart


Am I failure?
Maybe I am,
Maybe you're right,
You have take good care of your faces,
But you didn't think of my feelings,
Do you know?
When you said something,
I'm hurt,
You don't know,
But my HEART is painful,
You said I'm useless,
Never Mind,
I just keep quiet and be silence,
Didn't say anything in this moment..

I'm controlling my tears by dropping down at there,
I don't want anyone to saw I cried,
It's very shamed,
A boy stand there and keep crying,
It's look like a fool,
I don't want,
My heart so painful,
You've do your best in avoiding get scolded by other teachers.
But how about me?
Did I have the responsibility to become your cover?
The mistakes that you made,
You didn't face it,
But it push the mistakes to me,
You want to keep your faces by pushed me to get scolded.
IS IT A RESPONSIBILITY FOR A TEACHER SHOULD DO ????!!!!!

You're a teacher,
I know every teachers will believe in you,
If you say anything bad about me,
The others teachers will not felt wrong,
Because I'm just only a STUDENT,
No one have to believe me..

Hey,
I have a dream,
You know?
Why?
You want to break my way,
It doesn't seem right,
My life keeps getting in the way,
Whenever I try,
But it's very hard to say,
Why you must forced me..

I want to stop walking,
Just stay at the conner,
Don't want to think about anythings,
I cry for many times,
But the pain still here,
Will it fade away,
I don't know,
I'm sorry,
I cried...

Mood Diary 1st ( 10 November 2010 )

10 November 2010 ( Wednesday )
Rainy Day In My Heart


Complicated thinking in my mind??
Don't know,
But..
What should I do??
I'm always walking on a roundabout,
Keep turning in a same direction,
Am I following you,
Because you're amazing,
It attracted me..
OH NO,
The day we have been together,
And the day we break up,
It's in my mind..

Peoples say,
The memories will fade,
Everything will be forget after somedays,
But I'm scared,
Why?
Don't know..
Because I don't wanna to think too much.
Just scared that,
You will be always in my minds & my HEART !!

When I saw your eyes,
It's so beautiful,
You're like a star in the sky,
I want to get it,
But it shouldn't.

Never mind,
Keep walking on my way,
Find the right routes,
And walk on it.
Try to stop crying and SMILEs..


*Simple posting for DIARY

I'm back To Blog-ING !! :D

Yo !!
I'm back !!
Long time didn't come back here to have a clean-ING
Oh No
It's very dirty here !! :D
Never Mind
I'll clean it faster and make it clearly !!
From now on
Here is the my diary to everyday for my life !!
Yeah !
Welcome My Self :P

Long Time Ago..

Already a long time didn't update my blog
My blog is very simple
Just only to express my stress
Simple and easy
Everything in my blog will change
Because those things in my blog
Is not available
Is not with me anymore
So wait for sometime and visit here again
You all have a surprise !!
Thanks ! :D

Listen Girl I Just Wanna Let U Know

Listen girl I just wanna let u know
There are many things i my heart
That I wanna show
You see time is passing
Our future's getting cold
Through the rough times
You're the one I wanna hold
When we first met
You already have a boy
With the smile on your face
I guessed you made the choice
Thinking back now I was just a fool
Waiting every single day
For you to be mine too

And I should of let go
But I choose to hold on
Through all these times
I guess I was just wrong
My love is so deep
Now I wrote you this quote
Why did I have to love u all along
I wanna go back
Like we never even met
I guess its just life everything's already set
When we first met
Right from the start
I gave you my love and I gave you my heart
How could I have known
That ill be left alone
I'm sitting by myself
Cryin all my tears out
And with a little thought
You're what my life's about
Every single day
What am I suppose to do?
What am I suppose to say?
Before I go to sleep
Every single night
I just pray to god for you to have a happy life

See I'm keeping my pride
I ain't gonna cry girl
I gotta hold it inside
Just let it pass me by
I will never make u mad
I'll never make u sad
I tell myself it's ok
It ain't gonna be bad
I just lie to myself
Holdin everything inside
I don't wanna let you know
That I want to cry
But yet I try and its getting so hard

It's like I have to lie
From keeping us apart
And the truth is to be told
That I don't wanna let go
But you should know girl
To me you mean the world
But I'm thinking negative
I didn't think about the times
Times you made me smile
Everything will be fine
Through any situations I will sacrifice
I'll do anything for you
I'm willing to die
What ever makes you happy
Then girl it is you
The only thing I want is for u to be mine
But were so far apart
Were in two different worlds
It's getting so dark
I don't know what should be told
I guess the time has come
And I gotta let go.
This is too much pain
I can't take it anymore...
No..

Forget and Remember

Do you ever think about me...
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep...
In the middle of the night when you awake...
Are you calling out my name...

Forget him
Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once know
Remember he has some one new
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget he has chosen her
Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh
Forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the times he walked by
Forget the times he made you cry
Forget the times he spoke your name
Remember now your not the same
Forget the times he held your hand
Forget the sweet things if you can
Forget the times & Don't pretend
Remember now he's just your friend
Forget the time that won't so fast
Forget the love that moved it's past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember he's gone forever
And remember that i'm always be here for you
I love you more than he love you

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Heaven'y God
Full of grace
Bless my girlfriend's sexy face
Bless her hair the way it curls
Keep her away from other boys
Bless her little nose and toes
And keep her safe wherever he goes
Bless her arms so small and weak
Help her keep them where they belong
Bless her eyes that shine like stars
And keep her mind on me
Bless her body the way it smells
I tell you Lord she isn't shy
She's got her faults but so do I
Bless her lord because she's my WIFE



p/s:
A lot of people walk in and out of my life
But
You're one of the only ones
I ever really wanted
To stick around
You may be out of my sight
But never out of my mind
I Miss You
Darling =D

Lov3 m3 Littl3, Lov3 m3 Long, Lov3 You n3v3r Wrong.

If I could save time in a bottle,
The first thing that I'd like to do,
Is to save every day until eternity passes away,
Just to spend them with you.

If I could make days last forever,
If words could make wishes come true,
I'd save every day like a treasure and then,
Again I would spend them with you.

Thank you for comforting me when I'm sad,
Loving me when I'm mad,
Picking me up when I'm down,
Thank you for being my friend and being around,
Teaching me the meaning of love,
Encouraging me when I need a shove,
But most of all thank you for,
Loving me for who I am.

Love is more than a word,
It says so much,
When I see these four letters,
I almost feel your touch.

This only happened since,
I fell in love with you,
Why this word does this,
I haven't got a clue.

You're always there for me,
When things tend to go wrong,
It's that faith you have in me,
That makes our love strong.

Thank you for standing behind me,
In all that I do,
I hope you're as happy with me,
As I am with you.

It's your loving and your caring,
And knowing that you're near,
That gentle touch you have,
Make my troubles disappear.

My love is like the grasses ,
Hidden in the deep mountains,
Though its abundance increase,
There is none that knows.

I have been sleeping all alone,
You have been staring in my dreams,
I want to kiss you, my baby,
I want to kiss you tonight.

My love,
You are like a flower,
So sweet and pure and fair.

I just can't believe,
The loveliness of loving you,
I just can't believe,
the one to love this feeling, too.

I now know how sweet a kiss could be,
Like the summer sunshine,
Your sweetness over me.

I love to be the one you always think of,
The one you share the joys and hardships with,
I'll always love to be the one you love.

My eyes are the stars over your window,
Gazing affectionately at you every night.

Love my Little,
Love me Long,
Love mo Song,
Love ma Rwong,
Love You Never Wrong.

I love you, trust me, alright?

I love you,
say we together baby,
you and me.
I can only give my love,
and show you what I am,
in the blast I breathe.
I will promise you my heart,
and give you what you need,
if you take some times.
And if you tell me you don't leave me any more,
but I love want blast forever,
I will ask you for your chance to try again
to make a love I leave to better,
I love you,
say we together baby,
say we together.
I need you,
I need you forever baby,
you and me.
You say you how we know
exactly who I am to how to understand.
I do right from the sideling,
no way after said,
if you read my mind.
If you tell me you don't leave me any more,
but I love want blast forever
I will ask you for your chance to try again
to make a love or leave to better.
I love you,
say we together baby,
say we together.
I need you,
I need you forever baby,
need you forever.
Remember when I news to while clear,
remember when I make you to cry.
Yes, you still love me.
Oh, dear.
If you tell me you don't leave me any more,
I love you,
say we together baby,
say we together.
I need you,
I need you forever baby,
you and me.

I love you,
My Darling Sin,
Trust me, Alright?

My love...=)

I remember the first day I saw the sunlight on your face
First hello was so beautiful
Breathless and captivated and my soul was elevated
If this ain't heaven then i don't know what is
I wasn't looking for you baby
And it feels so right
All the pieces fit together
Of you and me together till the end of time
It's just like a river
We flow together
Twisting and turning
Through the valley of love
It's just like the music
It goes on forever
The words fit together with the melody of life
The sweatiest kiss you first gave me
My heart just racing
First embrace was so magical
Your smile left me speechless
Damn your love was so contagious
I found you way to me baby
I feel like I can touch the sky
(That's how i feel when i'm with you)
Because your love takes me so high
The loves fit us to be together with the melody of life
Love you
Baby
=)