30 November 2010
Tears Dropping
Why?
You ~~!!
I want to forget you,
The memories between us,
I want to throw it into the rubbish dump,
It's no more important for me,
It's meaningless ~!!
Because,
You're the one,
Who made me lost everything !!!
Included my friends,
DAMN !!
I'm asking myself,
Why?
Am I still hating you,
But I can't get the answer,
I'm not caring you,
When I saw you face,
I felt disgusting,
A punch was wanted to be given by me to you.
ARRRSHHHH!!
What should I do,
CONFUSING in my MIND & HEART ~!
I cried for a night,
Maybe all of you will not believe in this,
But I really did,
I don't want to do to that so,
But I can't control myself,
Everything's NATURAL,
Tears dropped down from my eyes automatically.
I walked alone on the street,
I'm scolding myself,
I'm blaming myself.
I look strong,
But actually I'm weak.
I'm just a normal guy.
*Girl,
Maybe you will feel paiseh lah ~
Because of me,
I knew it,
Ahahaha ~
But actually I wanted to ask you something,
That's,
Could you just jump into my MIND, my HEART & also my SOUL ~!
I'm not dare to ask you a question like that lah ~!
It's sweet,
You know it?
Maybe you don't like me,
But I do.
It's okay.
No matter what answer in your mind,
I still can accept it. =)
Monday, November 29, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Mood Diary 4th ( 28 November 2010 )
28 November 2010
Eco Eco Eco
Just came back from the M.A.D Leo Camp that was held at Cameron Highland,
These 3 days,
I learned a lot of things,
That's very meaningful.
Beside that,
Every activity is also quite syok.
But some are bored also,
Actually I'm very tired when I'm writing this post.
NO MORE ENERGY ~~ !!
EXHAUSTED ~~ !!
Some of the sketches are very funny,
Some of that are very bored,
But at least everyone had try their best to sketch for it.
I'm so happy because I can go to this Leo Camp,
I had a lot of new friends,
Although they live far away from my school.
They are came from Penang, Kedah, Perak, Ipoh and also Kuala Lumpur.
All of them are very friendly,
I'm also very friendly and also leng zai marh ~ ! ( THIS IS THE POINT~! XD )
Group 10 is my group,
This group damn funny,
While we're all having the activities,
We felt very happy and syok.
Because my group got hentai also. ><
My group got 14 members,
Included me lah ~ !
1. How Chuan
2. Nicholas ( Hentai ) XD
3. Zheng Feng
4. Darius ( OKK / OKU ) ( OKK = Orang Kurang Kurus / OKU = Orang Kurang Upaya )
5. Huei Hong
6. Li Chung
7. Wei Xian
8. Kah Fei
9. Xi Gene
10. Rain ( Not the KOREA's singer arh ! )
11. Carney ( GARDENIA ) Wakakakaka =D
12. Edmond ( A very quiet guy )
13. Vincent ( This guy sibeh leng zai lah !!! If you want to know him, tell me ! I introduce you to him, but NO GAY ARH ! )
All of these guys are my teammates !
We live together,
And die together !! ( In the CAMP only ) XD
We have fun in the activities of team building !
Syok-nya ~~
Beside that,
We have 1 more thing that was extremely excited to play for it !
That's to find out the moles that hide inside our teams. !
My team figured out 3 moles,
And our team got special commands !
That's DWL !~ Haha XD
You won't even know what's the mean of DWL.
This is a secret.
1 more KNS thing I want to share !
Don't ever wake us up at 3 o'clock morning to helping you all celebrate the birthday !
It's none of business lah woi. ==
People already mahu pengsan-pengsan,
You all still wake them up to do something 'SPECIAL'~!
WALAO EH ~!
Don't mind if I said something wrong arh !
Forgive me please ~ XD
Actually I really learned a lot of things from this camp,
This camp are damn funny and meaningful.
After this camp,
We all must MAKE A DIFFERENCE ! =)
Fall In Love to Your Sweet Smiles
*Second Part of My 4th Mood Diary
Xi Gene!
Vincent !
Help me a lot in this,
Thanks a lot,
Girl !
When I see you face,
It make me think about my first love,
Don't know why,
I like your sweet smiles,
I like your cute ears,
I like your shining eyes ~!
Everything of you attracted me,
It's like a magnet,
Hey Girl,
I miss you.
Maybe you won't even know that I miss you !
But I want to say it out loud here ~!
I like you, Girl.
Send a message for you,
And giving a hope to myself,
Wish that you will reply my message,
No matter how longs the time will be taken,
I will waiting for you.
Don't think that I'm just cheating,
I didn't bluff,
This is the truth !
Walk closer to you,
When my hand touch with your hand,
I felt that your hand are quite cold,
Did you felt cold,
Don't be afraid,
I'm not a monster,
I'm just a normal guy,
A human being like you.
I'm not scary,
I'm straight,
I didn't cheat,
Because I don't want to have any secrets between you and me.
Last before,
I'm always living in my own world,
I don't know,
What will happen in the next minute,
I knew that's something has changed,
Never felt this way,
And right here tonight.
I had a wishes,
Wish this moment,
Was ours to own it.
Girl,
I LIKE YOU ~!
*Maybe it's paiseh one lah,
But it's just only a post,
simple post,
I wrote it out what's in my mind and my heart.
Don't mind it.
Anything doing wrong,
Please forgive me,
Girl.
Eco Eco Eco
Just came back from the M.A.D Leo Camp that was held at Cameron Highland,
These 3 days,
I learned a lot of things,
That's very meaningful.
Beside that,
Every activity is also quite syok.
But some are bored also,
Actually I'm very tired when I'm writing this post.
NO MORE ENERGY ~~ !!
EXHAUSTED ~~ !!
Some of the sketches are very funny,
Some of that are very bored,
But at least everyone had try their best to sketch for it.
I'm so happy because I can go to this Leo Camp,
I had a lot of new friends,
Although they live far away from my school.
They are came from Penang, Kedah, Perak, Ipoh and also Kuala Lumpur.
All of them are very friendly,
I'm also very friendly and also leng zai marh ~ ! ( THIS IS THE POINT~! XD )
Group 10 is my group,
This group damn funny,
While we're all having the activities,
We felt very happy and syok.
Because my group got hentai also. ><
My group got 14 members,
Included me lah ~ !
1. How Chuan
2. Nicholas ( Hentai ) XD
3. Zheng Feng
4. Darius ( OKK / OKU ) ( OKK = Orang Kurang Kurus / OKU = Orang Kurang Upaya )
5. Huei Hong
6. Li Chung
7. Wei Xian
8. Kah Fei
9. Xi Gene
10. Rain ( Not the KOREA's singer arh ! )
11. Carney ( GARDENIA ) Wakakakaka =D
12. Edmond ( A very quiet guy )
13. Vincent ( This guy sibeh leng zai lah !!! If you want to know him, tell me ! I introduce you to him, but NO GAY ARH ! )
All of these guys are my teammates !
We live together,
And die together !! ( In the CAMP only ) XD
We have fun in the activities of team building !
Syok-nya ~~
Beside that,
We have 1 more thing that was extremely excited to play for it !
That's to find out the moles that hide inside our teams. !
My team figured out 3 moles,
And our team got special commands !
That's DWL !~ Haha XD
You won't even know what's the mean of DWL.
This is a secret.
1 more KNS thing I want to share !
Don't ever wake us up at 3 o'clock morning to helping you all celebrate the birthday !
It's none of business lah woi. ==
People already mahu pengsan-pengsan,
You all still wake them up to do something 'SPECIAL'~!
WALAO EH ~!
Don't mind if I said something wrong arh !
Forgive me please ~ XD
Actually I really learned a lot of things from this camp,
This camp are damn funny and meaningful.
After this camp,
We all must MAKE A DIFFERENCE ! =)
Fall In Love to Your Sweet Smiles
*Second Part of My 4th Mood Diary
Xi Gene!
Vincent !
Help me a lot in this,
Thanks a lot,
Girl !
When I see you face,
It make me think about my first love,
Don't know why,
I like your sweet smiles,
I like your cute ears,
I like your shining eyes ~!
Everything of you attracted me,
It's like a magnet,
Hey Girl,
I miss you.
Maybe you won't even know that I miss you !
But I want to say it out loud here ~!
I like you, Girl.
Send a message for you,
And giving a hope to myself,
Wish that you will reply my message,
No matter how longs the time will be taken,
I will waiting for you.
Don't think that I'm just cheating,
I didn't bluff,
This is the truth !
Walk closer to you,
When my hand touch with your hand,
I felt that your hand are quite cold,
Did you felt cold,
Don't be afraid,
I'm not a monster,
I'm just a normal guy,
A human being like you.
I'm not scary,
I'm straight,
I didn't cheat,
Because I don't want to have any secrets between you and me.
Last before,
I'm always living in my own world,
I don't know,
What will happen in the next minute,
I knew that's something has changed,
Never felt this way,
And right here tonight.
I had a wishes,
Wish this moment,
Was ours to own it.
Girl,
I LIKE YOU ~!
*Maybe it's paiseh one lah,
But it's just only a post,
simple post,
I wrote it out what's in my mind and my heart.
Don't mind it.
Anything doing wrong,
Please forgive me,
Girl.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Mood Diary 3rd ( 25 November 2010 )
25 November 2010
Confused In My Heart
It's the M.A.D Leo Camp tomorrow,
Actually,
I should clean all the rubbish that always confused my HEART,
'They' stay in my MIND,
But they didn't wanted to get away from me.
I want to say it out !
Talk out LOUD !
I really miss you.
The first time of our date,
I didn't forget about it,
The Coffee Shop that we dated at,
I passed by at yesterday,
It's not there anymore,
It had change to a Western Restaurant.
Although everything had changes,
But something in my mind,
It didn't change at all,
Why?
I ask it always to myself,
Why can I just simply to forget it.
Am I wrong to miss you so much.
Forgive me,
About I didn't told you that,
The one who love you most,
It's ME...
I use strong to cover my weakness,
It's look like free,
But exactly I'm lonely,
I don't know the sadness that you have and the hurt that you told me before,
But I did.
Lastly,
Leave,
Stop the time,
Stop that moment,
Recognize the winter,
Remember the summer,
I'm sorry about that Dear,
I never tried to use my heart,
To do my best to understand you,
But now I knew that I loved you by my heart.
It's time to pack my bag,
See YA ! My HEART !
No more confused,
Be serious.
Confused In My Heart
It's the M.A.D Leo Camp tomorrow,
Actually,
I should clean all the rubbish that always confused my HEART,
'They' stay in my MIND,
But they didn't wanted to get away from me.
I want to say it out !
Talk out LOUD !
I really miss you.
The first time of our date,
I didn't forget about it,
The Coffee Shop that we dated at,
I passed by at yesterday,
It's not there anymore,
It had change to a Western Restaurant.
Although everything had changes,
But something in my mind,
It didn't change at all,
Why?
I ask it always to myself,
Why can I just simply to forget it.
Am I wrong to miss you so much.
Forgive me,
About I didn't told you that,
The one who love you most,
It's ME...
I use strong to cover my weakness,
It's look like free,
But exactly I'm lonely,
I don't know the sadness that you have and the hurt that you told me before,
But I did.
Lastly,
Leave,
Stop the time,
Stop that moment,
Recognize the winter,
Remember the summer,
I'm sorry about that Dear,
I never tried to use my heart,
To do my best to understand you,
But now I knew that I loved you by my heart.
It's time to pack my bag,
See YA ! My HEART !
No more confused,
Be serious.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Mood Diary 2nd ( 12 November 2010 )
12 November 2010 ( Friday )
Black View In My Heart
Am I failure?
Maybe I am,
Maybe you're right,
You have take good care of your faces,
But you didn't think of my feelings,
Do you know?
When you said something,
I'm hurt,
You don't know,
But my HEART is painful,
You said I'm useless,
Never Mind,
I just keep quiet and be silence,
Didn't say anything in this moment..
I'm controlling my tears by dropping down at there,
I don't want anyone to saw I cried,
It's very shamed,
A boy stand there and keep crying,
It's look like a fool,
I don't want,
My heart so painful,
You've do your best in avoiding get scolded by other teachers.
But how about me?
Did I have the responsibility to become your cover?
The mistakes that you made,
You didn't face it,
But it push the mistakes to me,
You want to keep your faces by pushed me to get scolded.
IS IT A RESPONSIBILITY FOR A TEACHER SHOULD DO ????!!!!!
You're a teacher,
I know every teachers will believe in you,
If you say anything bad about me,
The others teachers will not felt wrong,
Because I'm just only a STUDENT,
No one have to believe me..
Hey,
I have a dream,
You know?
Why?
You want to break my way,
It doesn't seem right,
My life keeps getting in the way,
Whenever I try,
But it's very hard to say,
Why you must forced me..
I want to stop walking,
Just stay at the conner,
Don't want to think about anythings,
I cry for many times,
But the pain still here,
Will it fade away,
I don't know,
I'm sorry,
I cried...
Black View In My Heart
Am I failure?
Maybe I am,
Maybe you're right,
You have take good care of your faces,
But you didn't think of my feelings,
Do you know?
When you said something,
I'm hurt,
You don't know,
But my HEART is painful,
You said I'm useless,
Never Mind,
I just keep quiet and be silence,
Didn't say anything in this moment..
I'm controlling my tears by dropping down at there,
I don't want anyone to saw I cried,
It's very shamed,
A boy stand there and keep crying,
It's look like a fool,
I don't want,
My heart so painful,
You've do your best in avoiding get scolded by other teachers.
But how about me?
Did I have the responsibility to become your cover?
The mistakes that you made,
You didn't face it,
But it push the mistakes to me,
You want to keep your faces by pushed me to get scolded.
IS IT A RESPONSIBILITY FOR A TEACHER SHOULD DO ????!!!!!
You're a teacher,
I know every teachers will believe in you,
If you say anything bad about me,
The others teachers will not felt wrong,
Because I'm just only a STUDENT,
No one have to believe me..
Hey,
I have a dream,
You know?
Why?
You want to break my way,
It doesn't seem right,
My life keeps getting in the way,
Whenever I try,
But it's very hard to say,
Why you must forced me..
I want to stop walking,
Just stay at the conner,
Don't want to think about anythings,
I cry for many times,
But the pain still here,
Will it fade away,
I don't know,
I'm sorry,
I cried...
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Mood Diary 1st ( 10 November 2010 )
10 November 2010 ( Wednesday )
Rainy Day In My Heart
Complicated thinking in my mind??
Don't know,
But..
What should I do??
I'm always walking on a roundabout,
Keep turning in a same direction,
Am I following you,
Because you're amazing,
It attracted me..
OH NO,
The day we have been together,
And the day we break up,
It's in my mind..
Peoples say,
The memories will fade,
Everything will be forget after somedays,
But I'm scared,
Why?
Don't know..
Because I don't wanna to think too much.
Just scared that,
You will be always in my minds & my HEART !!
When I saw your eyes,
It's so beautiful,
You're like a star in the sky,
I want to get it,
But it shouldn't.
Never mind,
Keep walking on my way,
Find the right routes,
And walk on it.
Try to stop crying and SMILEs..
*Simple posting for DIARY
Rainy Day In My Heart
Complicated thinking in my mind??
Don't know,
But..
What should I do??
I'm always walking on a roundabout,
Keep turning in a same direction,
Am I following you,
Because you're amazing,
It attracted me..
OH NO,
The day we have been together,
And the day we break up,
It's in my mind..
Peoples say,
The memories will fade,
Everything will be forget after somedays,
But I'm scared,
Why?
Don't know..
Because I don't wanna to think too much.
Just scared that,
You will be always in my minds & my HEART !!
When I saw your eyes,
It's so beautiful,
You're like a star in the sky,
I want to get it,
But it shouldn't.
Never mind,
Keep walking on my way,
Find the right routes,
And walk on it.
Try to stop crying and SMILEs..
*Simple posting for DIARY
Saturday, November 6, 2010
I'm back To Blog-ING !! :D
Yo !!
I'm back !!
Long time didn't come back here to have a clean-ING
Oh No
It's very dirty here !! :D
Never Mind
I'll clean it faster and make it clearly !!
From now on
Here is the my diary to everyday for my life !!
Yeah !
Welcome My Self :P
I'm back !!
Long time didn't come back here to have a clean-ING
Oh No
It's very dirty here !! :D
Never Mind
I'll clean it faster and make it clearly !!
From now on
Here is the my diary to everyday for my life !!
Yeah !
Welcome My Self :P
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