Mood Diary 2nd ( 12 November 2010 )

12 November 2010 ( Friday )
Black View In My Heart


Am I failure?
Maybe I am,
Maybe you're right,
You have take good care of your faces,
But you didn't think of my feelings,
Do you know?
When you said something,
I'm hurt,
You don't know,
But my HEART is painful,
You said I'm useless,
Never Mind,
I just keep quiet and be silence,
Didn't say anything in this moment..

I'm controlling my tears by dropping down at there,
I don't want anyone to saw I cried,
It's very shamed,
A boy stand there and keep crying,
It's look like a fool,
I don't want,
My heart so painful,
You've do your best in avoiding get scolded by other teachers.
But how about me?
Did I have the responsibility to become your cover?
The mistakes that you made,
You didn't face it,
But it push the mistakes to me,
You want to keep your faces by pushed me to get scolded.
IS IT A RESPONSIBILITY FOR A TEACHER SHOULD DO ????!!!!!

You're a teacher,
I know every teachers will believe in you,
If you say anything bad about me,
The others teachers will not felt wrong,
Because I'm just only a STUDENT,
No one have to believe me..

Hey,
I have a dream,
You know?
Why?
You want to break my way,
It doesn't seem right,
My life keeps getting in the way,
Whenever I try,
But it's very hard to say,
Why you must forced me..

I want to stop walking,
Just stay at the conner,
Don't want to think about anythings,
I cry for many times,
But the pain still here,
Will it fade away,
I don't know,
I'm sorry,
I cried...

Mood Diary 1st ( 10 November 2010 )

10 November 2010 ( Wednesday )
Rainy Day In My Heart


Complicated thinking in my mind??
Don't know,
But..
What should I do??
I'm always walking on a roundabout,
Keep turning in a same direction,
Am I following you,
Because you're amazing,
It attracted me..
OH NO,
The day we have been together,
And the day we break up,
It's in my mind..

Peoples say,
The memories will fade,
Everything will be forget after somedays,
But I'm scared,
Why?
Don't know..
Because I don't wanna to think too much.
Just scared that,
You will be always in my minds & my HEART !!

When I saw your eyes,
It's so beautiful,
You're like a star in the sky,
I want to get it,
But it shouldn't.

Never mind,
Keep walking on my way,
Find the right routes,
And walk on it.
Try to stop crying and SMILEs..


*Simple posting for DIARY

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Oh No
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Long Time Ago..

Already a long time didn't update my blog
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Listen Girl I Just Wanna Let U Know

Listen girl I just wanna let u know
There are many things i my heart
That I wanna show
You see time is passing
Our future's getting cold
Through the rough times
You're the one I wanna hold
When we first met
You already have a boy
With the smile on your face
I guessed you made the choice
Thinking back now I was just a fool
Waiting every single day
For you to be mine too

And I should of let go
But I choose to hold on
Through all these times
I guess I was just wrong
My love is so deep
Now I wrote you this quote
Why did I have to love u all along
I wanna go back
Like we never even met
I guess its just life everything's already set
When we first met
Right from the start
I gave you my love and I gave you my heart
How could I have known
That ill be left alone
I'm sitting by myself
Cryin all my tears out
And with a little thought
You're what my life's about
Every single day
What am I suppose to do?
What am I suppose to say?
Before I go to sleep
Every single night
I just pray to god for you to have a happy life

See I'm keeping my pride
I ain't gonna cry girl
I gotta hold it inside
Just let it pass me by
I will never make u mad
I'll never make u sad
I tell myself it's ok
It ain't gonna be bad
I just lie to myself
Holdin everything inside
I don't wanna let you know
That I want to cry
But yet I try and its getting so hard

It's like I have to lie
From keeping us apart
And the truth is to be told
That I don't wanna let go
But you should know girl
To me you mean the world
But I'm thinking negative
I didn't think about the times
Times you made me smile
Everything will be fine
Through any situations I will sacrifice
I'll do anything for you
I'm willing to die
What ever makes you happy
Then girl it is you
The only thing I want is for u to be mine
But were so far apart
Were in two different worlds
It's getting so dark
I don't know what should be told
I guess the time has come
And I gotta let go.
This is too much pain
I can't take it anymore...
No..

Forget and Remember

Do you ever think about me...
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep...
In the middle of the night when you awake...
Are you calling out my name...

Forget him
Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his kiss
His warm embrace
Forget the love that you once know
Remember he has some one new
Forget him when they played your song
Remember when you cried all night long
Forget he has chosen her
Forget you memorized his walk
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away
Forget his laugh
Forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his chin
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonight
Forget the times he walked by
Forget the times he made you cry
Forget the times he spoke your name
Remember now your not the same
Forget the times he held your hand
Forget the sweet things if you can
Forget the times & Don't pretend
Remember now he's just your friend
Forget the time that won't so fast
Forget the love that moved it's past
Forget he said he'd leave you never
Remember he's gone forever
And remember that i'm always be here for you
I love you more than he love you

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Heaven'y God
Full of grace
Bless my girlfriend's sexy face
Bless her hair the way it curls
Keep her away from other boys
Bless her little nose and toes
And keep her safe wherever he goes
Bless her arms so small and weak
Help her keep them where they belong
Bless her eyes that shine like stars
And keep her mind on me
Bless her body the way it smells
I tell you Lord she isn't shy
She's got her faults but so do I
Bless her lord because she's my WIFE



p/s:
A lot of people walk in and out of my life
But
You're one of the only ones
I ever really wanted
To stick around
You may be out of my sight
But never out of my mind
I Miss You
Darling =D

Lov3 m3 Littl3, Lov3 m3 Long, Lov3 You n3v3r Wrong.

If I could save time in a bottle,
The first thing that I'd like to do,
Is to save every day until eternity passes away,
Just to spend them with you.

If I could make days last forever,
If words could make wishes come true,
I'd save every day like a treasure and then,
Again I would spend them with you.

Thank you for comforting me when I'm sad,
Loving me when I'm mad,
Picking me up when I'm down,
Thank you for being my friend and being around,
Teaching me the meaning of love,
Encouraging me when I need a shove,
But most of all thank you for,
Loving me for who I am.

Love is more than a word,
It says so much,
When I see these four letters,
I almost feel your touch.

This only happened since,
I fell in love with you,
Why this word does this,
I haven't got a clue.

You're always there for me,
When things tend to go wrong,
It's that faith you have in me,
That makes our love strong.

Thank you for standing behind me,
In all that I do,
I hope you're as happy with me,
As I am with you.

It's your loving and your caring,
And knowing that you're near,
That gentle touch you have,
Make my troubles disappear.

My love is like the grasses ,
Hidden in the deep mountains,
Though its abundance increase,
There is none that knows.

I have been sleeping all alone,
You have been staring in my dreams,
I want to kiss you, my baby,
I want to kiss you tonight.

My love,
You are like a flower,
So sweet and pure and fair.

I just can't believe,
The loveliness of loving you,
I just can't believe,
the one to love this feeling, too.

I now know how sweet a kiss could be,
Like the summer sunshine,
Your sweetness over me.

I love to be the one you always think of,
The one you share the joys and hardships with,
I'll always love to be the one you love.

My eyes are the stars over your window,
Gazing affectionately at you every night.

Love my Little,
Love me Long,
Love mo Song,
Love ma Rwong,
Love You Never Wrong.